December (kind of) updates

Hey everyone

Once again I must apologise for my tardiness with regards to posting, particularly the next part of The Orbiter.

I know I have used this excuse before but now it is more prominent than ever, my training concludes in February and as such over the last couple of months (as is sure to continue) everything work related has kicked into overdrive as the deadlines approach, and as such most of my time has been taken up by that.

To be even more honest, with the amount of writing I have to do for work, when I do get home the last thing I have been wanting to do is write even more for fun, its just felt like more of a chore as a result.

There is also the fact that I always struggle with the middle of stories, and while I know the general direction I want to take The Orbiter in, and I know the ending, I’ve been finding getting there quite difficult.

I have however been reading a lot more lately, and finding new inspiration down avenues such as that.

I think I’ve mentioned before that simple, narrative driven action-less games have a bit of a soft spot on me, which started when I stumbled across Gone Home a couple of years ago. Well this is still the case, the last year or so introducing to me Firewatch and Life is Strange.

And it was upon playing the prequel to Life is Strange that I was hit with a weird mood that I haven’t felt in a while, what it would be like to live in a kind of minimal way, buy an RV and live on the road, seeing new places all the time, never sure where the next destination is, that sort of thing.

I know realistically that wouldn’t work over here in the UK, and if I were to do it it would need to be in the States, where the land is bigger, the roads are longer and also more accommodating to vehicles of this sort.

(on another note, Firewatch made me want to spend a summer in a national park such as Yellowstone)

While this update doesn’t serve much purpose really, it I suppose strikes as a reminder that inspiration, both for stories and the growing of self, can strike from just about anywhere.

And while I would like to say the next Orbiter update will be out on time, looking at my schedule, this seems unlikely.

I might try to think of something else to post in its place but I can but apologise, and say to you to not hold your breath for me.

In the meantime stay well, and have a merry Christmas of course!

Uninventive

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Updates part 2

Hello everyone.

Once again I must apologise for my tardiness, I am still drowing under work and have had a manic couple of weeks where I wasn’t even living at home, instead housesitting for some friends of mine, which really threw my schedule off balance, worst of all, disrupting my sleep which means for the last two weeks I’ve been pretty much exhausted all the time. Including right now.

What this means is that the next chunk of the Orbiter is only really half ready, but to be honest as much as it should be, it’s not even my main priority right now, as I still have to sift through and mark potential candidates for a multi-person contribution book for Lent the committee I am a part of are working on, and so far due to being uprooted and tired I’ve done very little sifting, however I do have a four day weekend approaching which I plan to use to do so, as well as hopefully completing the next part of the Orbiter, which I hope will now live up to standards, as well as hopefully more than that, two months is long enough I think.

Instead, I thought this time around I would tell you all a story, as It’s been a while since I’ve done that.

Little over a month ago, I was in Newcastle for a writing conference, well more like a seminar really, but we had a really interesting speaker who trained as an actor, not sure how much I got out of it but it was certainly an interesting take.

During the lunch break I nipped out to get some food, and on the way got stopped by one of those people on the street, I think we’ve all been there right?

Turns out she wasn’t part of any charity, but was instead selling this discount card that offers discounts in many places in exchange for a small subscription fee.

I wasn’t really interested but I always feel bad for the fact that they often get ignored so I stopped to find out what it was all about.

That was when the probing began, asking me questions about where I shop and go out to eat and hobbies and things like that, I suppose in an effort to find out if I would benefit from it.

But, in my panic, there was a certain point where she asked me how much I spent on shopping each week, and when I said I wasn’t sure, she asked if my Girlfriend did it for me, in my panic I said yes.

Now baring in mind that I’ve been single for a good few years now, I had to run with this story, creating new bogus at every turn. including such things as we’ve been together for three months but live apart (fortunately she didn’t pick up on how little sense this made considering I said that she bought the food)

Most of what I said to her was based upon some kind of reality, I said that we went swing and ballroom dancing, which, while not something I do, are something I want to take up. I did make a comment, when she asked if I took out my other half and treated her, which went something along the lines of “Sometimes, but I like to be pampered too, I expect to be treated just as much.” (I paraphrase because I can’t recall exactly, but it was certainly words to that effect) which garnered laughter from us both as she commented that she could learn from that attitude.

This conversation lasted probably a good 10 minutes, me bluffing my way through various questions to gain a discount card I didn’t even want, but did end up with (though I canceled it straight away, sorry darling, but even your charm didn’t change my mind about not actually wanting the thing)

Weirdly enough though, even though most of what I said was total bull, (even if based off something true) I did learn a thing or two about myself, the things I want out of a potential relationship and my my general attitude towards strangers. My work colleague pointed out to me the other day that I would happily talk to anyone (this was after I had a friendly chat with a chap who was drunk on the bus we were both on) and there is a lot of truth to this.

Most people perceive me as being shy and reserved and quiet, of which I will give them the second two, but I don’t consider myself shy, I’m better one-on-one but give me the chance and I will talk your ear off. I don’t often initiate conversations out of the blue (I can often strike up chats with people serving behind bars or on the cash register (on more than one occasion I’ve held people up as a result. And I think this conversation is a prime example, I was able to happily chat away to someone about a topic I essentially made up, and even got a few laughs out of it, certainly growth on my part coming from where I used to be. Sure I’m still quiet but I don’t view it as a bad thing.

So thank you Woman in Newcastle I never got the name of, thank you for an interesting chat, thank you for actually laughing at the terrible jokes and puns I made, but thank you most of all for the opportunity to view this as a part of my growth as a person.

Anyway, this was a semi-interesting story for you all about a recent experience of mine, It’s not much but I found it interesting to look back on.

Stay frosty y’all

Uninventive

Updates

So, it has been a long time hasn’t it? A long time since I’ve sat down and done any kind of update or information, so here goes.

First off, I want to apologise  for my lack of blog post this month, June and July hit me with an absolute mountain of deadlines that I was barely able to climb over, and it just meant that all of my time and resources were (and still are being) poured into that.

This has basically been the reason for why there has been no update to the Orbiter, I’ve simply not had the time, and instead of rushing one out haphazardly  I left it until I could do a post that would I hope meet expectations.

I probably should have done a post at the time explaining this but, as with everything I kept putting it off and eventually left it too late, in fact it took prompting for even this post to appear.

So, in the spirit of updates, lets go:

I am still going my current training, the one I started back in January 2016, and am set to finish February 2018, so nearing the end now, though that does mean things will likely get more intense as time goes on, but hopefully I will be more prepared (fingers crossed)

On the evening of Tuesday 11th July, my cat, Boyfriend (yes that was his name) passed away. My Neighbor and I took him in a few years ago off the streets, and it took him a while to get used to human contact, we speculate he may have spent 7 years or so living on the streets, but we have no way of knowing, but his last five years were spent in what we hope was comfort for him. As such loosing him struck us both hard, but, I still had to work and remain professional, but it may be a while yet before I get used to not seeing him when I come home.

In more positive news, (but equally more terrifying) I have taken up driving, and in fact had my second lesson yesterday. It’s scary as shit and I tense up every four seconds or something, and as it stands, when I panic, I relinquish control, which obviously isn’t the best idea behind the wheel of a hefty 40mph vehicle. But at least I know where I want to improve, and I’m still annoyed that I have yet to learn how to brake properly, remember the clutch dammit!

I don’t think there is a great deal else to say at this point, well there would be if I were the sort of person to expose my feelings towards others openly, but I am not yet one of those people, my idea of flirting is just talking to the person I like and hoping they are braver! haha!

Take care Y;all

Uninventive

For Reynolds and Fisher

Before I start this post proper, I just want to say that the reason I haven’t posted the next part of my story as I usually would because of the sheer volume of work I have had (and still have to do) over the Christmas period, however I plan to be back on track and ready with the next post for the 1st February.

Instead of trying to catch up and post something late, I wanted to post something from the heart, a short, small and simple, tribute, if you can call it that, to Debbie Reynolds and Carrie Fisher.

I’ve seen a few posts on blogs and pictures in tribute, and they pretty much all have the same thing in common, a mutual respect and adoration for these two icons.

 

Singin’ in the Rain has been one of my favourite musicals for a long time, and I don’t another one taking that spot for a long time. Reynolds brought that film to life with her grace, style and sheer joviality.

And of course Fisher brought us the character of Leia, one who will go down as one of the characters who changed the face of the way female characters are portrayed, certainly not the first to do so, but one of the most influential.

 

This influence extends to many things, people and franchises, and certainly to my own workings.

Looking through the list of characters I have created over the years, a fair proportion of my leads have been female, and will likely continue to be. They often wind up being more three-dimensional than any of my male leads (Not by design, they just tend to have more depth and character as they develop) and most of them wind up being my favourite to create.

 

Even though they may no longer be with us, their legacy will live forever, and many will remember them for the hours of joy they brought us, and the people they will continue to inspire.

 

 

I said this would be short, I have never done anything like this before and have no idea what I am doing.

 

Uninventive

(I don’t know who created the below image, but if found it too beautiful not to share)

 

 

The night sky holds many things,

The Clouds to hold the skies tears,

The Stars to give us direction,

The Moon to give us the light.

Remembered you will be,

As we gaze into that night,

The stories that you told,

That you lived,

That you dreamt,

We may not know them all,

But forgotten they will not be.

The emotions you made us feel,

The reactions from us you brought,

You made us laugh,

Cry,

Tremble,

feel warm on the inside.

Fear not in this moment,

For remembered you will be,

Not by all,

But more importantly,

By those whose hearts you touched.

We thank you,

For the light you brought to us.

Next in Line

What kind of person would I be if I didn’t try to follow my own advice?

I’ve mentioned a few times, and tried to encourage (I feel) that a little bit at at time progress can be made if you put forth the effort, even a little at a time, that anyone can accomplish a goal they wish to. But yet here am I, saying this but not sticking to what I say even remotely.

So, because people should realistically lead by example, in a way, that’s what I plan on doing.

I had an idea a few weeks ago for a follow-up story to the series I hope to one day write, it will be canon, and fit on the same timeline, but not official, so even though its one of them, I’m not planning on counting it as part ten in a nine part series.

The plan from this point is to release a chunk of it at a time, somewhere in the vicinity of 1000-2000 words at a time, at the beginning of each month (Starting in February)

I don’t want to say too much about it at this stage, but I am actually excited to do this, and hopefully anyone who stumbles across it will maybe get something out of it.

Realistically I’m hoping for someone to read and just enjoy the story a piece at a time, but if it inspires someone to also put themselves out there then I would be happy with that too.

This is a short post because I just want to inform as to what will be happening on here for the foreseeable future. I’ve been looking for a direction for this site, and now I have one.

As such, I’m happy.

Take care, and hopefully enjoy.

Uninventive

The Upwards Climb

This post has been a long time coming.

After a hectic few months, I’m finally back in a place where posting something worthwhile and hopefully useful.

But first, a little bit of information.

Around this time last year I went for a job interview that I thought would be the perfect opportunity for me to take the next step up the corporate ladder (as I believe it is called) however I got unlucky and as such had to remain where I was.

I’ll admit, I wallowed in this for a while. At the time I wasn’t really enjoying my job and the prospect of continuing doing it just wasn’t something I was thrilled at. But I decided to buckle down and continue onwards, and as get more involved with the goings-on of the department. Doing favours for them and actually getting to know some of them properly. And as such, I actually began to enjoy it.

A few weeks ago I went for another interview for the same job, and this time I secured a position, something I was incredibly surprised by.

Now I’m about to say two things that are both seen as cliché, but both are things that, over the past year, have become apparent.

Firstly. If you want something enough, It will happen. If you put forth the effort and time, if you keep working towards it, it will happen. I mentioned once in a previous post that sometimes just an hour a week working towards a goal could be sufficient, and to a point this is true. The reason I said an hour a week is that if you have other responsibilities, be they work or otherwise, sometimes finding the time can be difficult. So just using what little time you have available is the key. Or sometimes just using it for something similar.

I have a nine part series I one day want to write, I have most of the plots and other details mapped out, but because I am trying to focus on gaining a career at the moment, it has had to be put on hold for the time being. So instead I practice my writing both through this blog, and through other short stories I occasionally write. I still put forth some time, and am never giving up on that dream.

But I guess the more solid example is the fact that although it took nearly two years to achieve, I am now moving towards a job with more open doors, I knew I wanted it and made the effort to get there.

The second thing is another cliché: Enjoy where you are.

This sounds really stupid given the first point I made, but it fits in its own way too.

There is the all too well known expression of “Smile and the world smiles with you” and while it may sound stupid, in my experience it is genuinely true. As the more I began to focus on the better sides of my job, the more I began to enjoy the company of those I worked with and the more willing I became to do favours for them and such.

This enjoyment of the job I was doing is what lead to me also pitching in and doing extra things for them, such as sorting out extra papers for them or doing the occasional errand. As I know they appreciate it and at the same time it made my being there feel even more worth it.

Both of these things inevitably helped when I went for the new job too, as it proved a willingness to help out and go the extra mile, something that helped into the interview.

So that’s why I feel that way, if you enjoy the position you are in, you may end up doing more for those around you, who are likely to return the favour.

I don’t want to act like I know what I’m talking about, but if I can ever give any kind of inspiration or advice, these two things are both ones that I feel may be helpful to those out there who are going through a similar thing.

So it is just those two things:

  • Work at your goal and given time you will achieve it.
  • Enjoy where you are at the moment, and it will repay you in some way.

Take care all of you

Uninventive

I can’t think of a title

Is it important to always have something to say?

I tend to go through phases with this blog, sometimes posting twice a week, at other times, taking an entire month off. I’m completely erratic with when I want to say something, and its more or less just when I feel I have something to say. Not necessarily something of any value, but just something in general.

Which begs the question, is it important to always have something to say?

I ask this because I’m almost feeling bad for having not posted anything in about three weeks, which actually feels like an exceptionally long time now I think about it. (Although lets face facts, It really isn’t all that long)

But the fact that I feel bad about not having had anything to say for the past few weeks tells me, or, more so helps confirm something about myself. I really like to be creative and have something to show for my time, thus why I seem to have all these different things on the go all at the same time. However this creates problems on two fronts; so many different things tends to mean I rapidly switch between them, making slow progress with each individually. The other problem stems from procrastination, and as I switch between my differing projects, I spend days doing nothing in between.

So If I have nothing to show for my time, it really puts a slump in my mood and brings me down, so usually I make a rule that if I am not at work, I have to do at least one productive thing throughout it. By productive here I mean something I have to show for my time, be it stitching, a bit of writing, drawing or sometimes just sorting things out. Something I can look at afterwards and feel at least a small sense of accomplishment.

So back to my previous question. I am one of those people that fluctuates rather rapidly, sometimes I don’t really care for saying anything and am more likely to just sit and listen, while at others I would quite easily talk for hours about something you couldn’t care less about.

But do I think its important to always have something to say?

Now this may just be my introverted, quiet nature speaking (In fact it definitely is) But I think I can honestly say no, It isn’t all that important, in fact sometimes its really helpful to just sit back and observe.

Through 2014 I think its safe to say I did a lot of stuff, I went on weekend trips multiple times, as well as taking four short trips away (Though to only two places, I just went to each one twice) I completed two short stories as well as revamping and restarting two of my older projects. suffice it to say I moved around a lot and kept myself incredibly busy.

This year has been less dramatic, I’ve been away once (Admittedly further and for longer) completed one (main) short story and done a few fresh drawings. Couple those with this blog, and I have done a good amount. The main difference being that I’ve been more relaxed and not tried to force anything.

This year has been far more relaxed, and I think I have taken more in, just because I allowed myself the chance to take it all in, I’ve read more, watched more (I fell in love with so many movies this year it’s unreal) but doing all this has allowed new waves of inspiration to smack me in the face.

So not always having something to say can be great for the system.

There is quite a famous quote related to this, that reads; “The Earth has music for those who listen.”

I think it extends further than that though. Admittedly I, like many, have fallen victim to the general feeling of rushingness and ignoring everything around me, hardly ever just taking the time of day to just stop and listen, or sometimes even think. But it extends further in the sense of not only does the earth have the music, but other people do too.

Everyone expresses themselves in different ways, but for the most part we only seem to listen to or see those who express themselves directly, as opposed to through other means.

Something I love to do is listen to movie soundtracks, they are often fantastic but overshadowed by the movie itself, but there is a lot of expression in there that is often missed. Some of these composers pour their heart and soul into the sounds they produce. While Fullbright company produced one of the most compelling and expressive games I’ve ever played in the form of Gone Home.

Now I’m not saying that these will be the right steps for everyone, nor am I trying to rope people into trying to do things the way I do. What I am trying to say however, is just to sometimes just slow down, stop speaking, and see what it around you that you find inspiring.

After all, you never know what you might find out there.

this has been a little longer than usual, my apologies.

Stay frosty.

Uninventive